My Art and Lifestyle
First and foremost I would like to warn others that this is a very personal post from me and relates to most of my nature and being, so with that said this post is rated G for Ghoulish!
For most of my young life I felt somewhat restricted and when I did or liked things that were different from others I was shunned. Every since my teenage years things started to change dramatically and that's when I started not to give a damn about anything. Those things that were suppose to serve me really didn't work for me as they did everyone else and even though I already knew it, it seem that it took others time to figure that out. Many tried to make me feel out of place and make me feel depressed because I am not like the rest but plain and simple I am a misfit and very proud of it!! Especially when you see others that thought they were on the road to somewhere by following the next persons dream were actually falling in the same pit that other sheep were falling into. Instead I found another way which was through my art--Whether it was my poetry, drawings, or music. I truly found my niche in the world and I really connected to it also around the time I found a deeper spirituality. My darkside was in full blossom and every since then my life was even more complete.
Some who may not know me may think other wise as if the clothing I wear is just for style or for show like some of the newer alternative people or some alternative Gothic models ...When actually this is who I am everyday, every night, 2/47, 365 etc. When I was younger, there were times in my life I was teased and much more for being different (especially being a black Goth) I grew up in a rough urban area which is Newark,NJ and there wasn't many of us around and it's still rare to find one. Though one day I do intend to go to QXT-(I will save that topic for another time)... Nowadays all of a sudden today seems to be different and somewhat of a trend especially if you were a female (Black Alternative-or seemingly Goth) (Some are not really into the Gothic subculture to me there are just scene, love the look but they are into an involved with the mainstream world, thoughts, and fads. i.e). This is not a fetish or just a style for me, this is part of my soul and if it is weird or scary to others then I feel those others aren't ready for me and they are not on my path in life. I am for the open minded and not for the timid or phony also I feel very connected towards the darkness and I live and breath it daily. Very much like my music, poetry and other random decorations of mine I need to be surrounded by and create more on a constant basis. It is very fulfilling to my soul and contributes towards my very existence.
I am a natural rebel and I find it hard to fall in line to some traditional values as well. Who says that you're fun have to be limited over the age of 30 such, who says that you have to leave the house once you're 18, who says you must go to college etc, live life as a conservative, join the military, play basketball, the american dream etc...If that's you're idea or mentality then that's ok for you not me, --the world has enough of those IMO.. My mentality is Punk/Goth/Ghoulish and, I am the dark shadowy figure that walks through backstreets or cuts through the woods making my own path scorching everything in my way. Yes I am wild at times and I am a REBEL. As a person who suffered from depression, I have made a long and triumphing journey finding a deeper part of myself and exploring the boundless reaches of the world beyond. In return I have continued to spread my art abroad the world and online unto this very day, hoping to ascend to even higher planes and reach others who are free like minded souls and individuals who share the same taste as me. So I will continue to further my pursuits and continue to create more dark art and for those who enjoy thank you very much and I do appreciate it ten fold. Last but not least be sure to pick up my digital ebook called The Undead which will speak more about me...It can be purchased here directly from my website Spiritus-The Dark Angel
http://spiritus13.wixsite.com/darkangel/poems-books in the Darkness I will be waiting, In the darkness I will be anticipating! )0( V'''V
